Since I actually updated this. Well if you notice, my tumblr is either where I vent to or where I post pictures of stuff that I’m happy to enjoy in my life either with significant others or moments. So I really don’t know what to say but maybe what I’m going through is for the better. Maybe its for the best for both. Because either way people don’t know who I really am and what I’m about, not even that “significant other” They just think that oh I’ve deprived them of everything. But honestly, stop assuming and saying shit like… oh but you know that your gonna be like…. A S S U M I N G . We all know that assumption leads to conclusion and gets no one anywhere, so why ? I’m so sick and tired of having your friends and family THINK that I’m the one that made you like this. You assuming that “you’re use to this.. and its too late”.. Seriously its never to late to go back to old habits. Whatever or whoever made you like this seriously fucked up your life when all I’ve been doing is trying to help you get yourself together and make something special together. But its come to a point where all this bickering is like whatever. You dont get how I feeel how you can say things like, oh they know i’m not coming because of you. OMFG really now? -___- People just dont go and say things out of no where. You made them think that way that yeah after a while.. “common sense” thats the idea they get and start to assume. You dont want people being in OUR business but look what your doing?! You put me in that place. But you never understood how all I wanted to do was help a nigga and love me for everything I’ve done.. Say you love me but whatever. Honestly, I think people would be so fucking happy when they find shit like this out!!! I FUCKING GAURANTEE and put it on my fucking life. Maybe like I said its for the best. But you know what i hope you had fun as it lasted being spoiled and pushed, but I pushed you for the better. Lets just hope someone can do that for you and have some patience. Because no one would understand the shit that I’ve been through.
My biggest regret though, is fucking up and lying to my own family for someone I know was never gonna always be there for me. My biggest regret is that I fucked up and used that nursing money (which is probably gonna be $50,000 when I’m done paying for it because of the interest) to put a lot of my attention on someone who couldnt support me like I thought they would. And I regret the fact that I could of left to go to the navy in June/July 2010 which I would of left in February 2011 for someone who put me in a place like this. Period point blank I fucked up my life versus what!? What did I mess up in your life !?!?! Anyways GG they win, i lose. Goodnights world.
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<310//562//951. 5 FLAT. CjB<3 & UNavailable. Goal Oriented. School&FAM<3 Priority. Determined&Motivated. College bound. CHS graduate DiME$. Girls Tennis Captain 09-10 & 24 hour fitness & working on that $$$ grind [: NiN9teen / Employed. Everyone has their own story, if you'd actually like to know mine then get to know me YOURSELF. Ignore the shit you hear ABOUT ME, let them ignorant little girls run their mouth. [: Tumblr is my escape to depression.
